26 Paź 2014, Nie 0:34, PID: 417854
Cytat:Question: In the past I longed for awakening. Now I’m feeling like having a break
but it doesn’t seem possible.
Karl: If nothing else can make you content, but that which you are, then an
unconditioned will awakes. Not your will. It is not a personal will. It is a completely
impersonal dynamic which cannot be derived from your personal history, with a
logic that you cannot grasp. You don’t know what’s going on anymore. A greater
power takes over. It is like an animal that gets the better of you. Consciousness is
a bitch. What happens to you cannot be calculated and predicted. It follows no
condition.
Q: This sounds mysterious.
K: You are the mystery. When that awakens which seems to have been asleep, one
can speak of grace. It becomes aware of itself and no longer allows anything else.
Nothing else can bring satisfaction. The focus is only on it-Self.
Everything else becomes stale, grey, meaningless. What am I still doing here? This
is depression: horror!
Q: Will depression come, inevitably?
K: What I mean by ‘depression’ is that a vacuum appears: an emptiness. This is
inevitable. Depression is when the emptiness appears in a person. If nothing – no
form, no human, no thought – can make you happy anymore, life becomes
completely meaningless.
Yes, this has to happen.
Q: And the feelings connected with it?
K: Feelings are vibrations and thoughts. Call them “melancholy … sorrow …
depression”. According to the dictionary, these are their names. But they are 135
merely vibrations. Feelings are energetic vibrations in the body. Energy turned into
form.
They don’t need to concern you.
Q: I imagined the awakening to be more pleasant.
K: When grace comes, most people try to run away. It’s not how they expected it:
such merciless mercy; so relentless; overwhelming! Nothing will be given you. All
will be taken.
Q: And life has no more meaning?
K: The lack of all meaning brings with it a freedom from all ideas.
Every hope, and meaning you give to the world, creates it and makes it real. As
soon as it ‘exists’ you become dependent on this creation and want to squeeze a
little happiness from it.
Now your creation springs back like a rubber band, stretched for a long time, and
now at last released.
Creation is gone: no more ideas; no meaning; only freedom.
Q: I’m sorry but this is rather frightening to me.
K: When U. G. Krishnamurti came to Ramana, he asked, “Can’t you give me what I
am?”
Ramana said, “Immediately, but can you take it?”
It is indeed always there. There is no moment in which it is absent. But can you
bear this easiness, this unbearable lightness of being?
Can you accept that it’s not up to you to decide what is acceptable and what isn’t?
Are you ready to be free of all difference: to no longer differentiate between
pleasant and unpleasant?
Can you accept what is unacceptable: the eternal sorrow of duality, as an aspect of
your realisation? Can you bear eternity? Have you gone as far as you can never
reach?
Can you, who are unending duality, also stand everlasting loneliness.
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